Hilary Merrill
Age: 40
Hero Journey to the Heart
Artist Statement
A Hero Journey, according to mythologist Joseph Campbell, traces a classic adventure that delves deep into the dark Underworld and empowers the Hero with a revelation and an expanded sense of self. I studied the Hero Journey chronicled in literature ranging from ancient Greece to medieval Europe to postmodern Spain, yet I only recently became aware that I have been living my own Hero Journey the entire time. As a young child, I felt a sense of incompleteness, but I knew clearly that Peter Pan and Neverland were the key to feeling whole again. I spent many years striving to live “outside the box,” searching for that second star to the right, and all the time looking outside myself for answers and approval – what a lot of shoulds! At this time, my subconscious showed me an image of my heart. It was a heart woven from dry, blackened driftwood, alone in darkness. Drift, wood, dry, black, alone, dark. My subconscious offered me great clarity, but it would take the wisdom and warmth of animals to help me fully understand this Call to Adventure on the Hero Journey and be brave enough to dive in. Animals were the only beings who I felt I could trust. They enthusiastically gathered in tangible form and in energetic form to guide and support me through this journey. In the third dimension, dogs softened and opened my heart, teaching me about the power of unconditional love, while horses lit my way and urged me farther down the rocky and unrelenting path to my soul. During meditation and intuitive practice, connecting with my mind’s eye, I invited a variety of extraordinary animal energies from the fifth dimension and beyond to guide me through cosmic spaces where I saw broad perspectives of life and new ways of energetically being; through deep, dark Underworlds where I disintegrated many times in many ways; and through other extradimensional settings where I was reborn as electricity and other wild elements. These animal energies guided me through experiences that renewed how I understand myself, my environment, and my interactions. Just as the Hero experiences revelation, in me a new feeling welled, so foreign that at first I couldn’t articulate it. I came to understand it as belonging. I finally found that second star on the right inside me. I found my heart and home through the mind’s eye, connecting with universal energy. The animal energies from various dimensions helped me rekindle a bonfire in my heart. As the culminating step of a Hero Journey, I see that I can be a conduit for universal heart energy in our 3D world. I look forward to how my animal friends will guide me in ever more bountifully sharing this love with YOU.